As the title states, I had a light anxiety attack yesterday and called out to a friend. I did want the person to help me through it I just wanted to say it and it be heard. I am usually very good about being in control of my emotions, but yesterday it all caught up with me. I am sure you are wondering what am I talking about right? Well, it's this book, all the things I am trying to do alone is a headache, because there are so many things, I don't know anything about. I wasn't giving encouraging words when I was growing up. When you parent or parents say, " you can so anything you set your mind to" All I heard when I was growing up was: just because you have an education, don't make you better than me" that's what I mom said to me one day and obviously I have not forgotten it. I also remember her calling me a monkey when I was around 13 years old. So, of course it's challenging to continue when I have not been in a positive environment. If anything, I am certain about is, I am writing something that has never been done before. I need to believe in myself and continue, and that’s exactly what I am doing.